My weightloss is continuing but really plays second to my dads situation right now...

Dad....

Dad has survived until today at least.It was feared he would go Thursday night/Friday morning. I just don't know how I would have dealt with the death of my father on my daughters birthday...5th Jan....a day of very mixed emotions ensued but thankfully he is still hanging in there this morning.
Have sat with him today,chatted to him and fed him the jelly like liquid which is all he can swallow now. Nothing really seems to matter right now. Can't get excited about anything. People have been supporting me in my time of need and it has been much appreciated all round. I have been feeling just so numb about the whole "losing dad" situation. He just lies there in his bed ,muttering senseless things but I know he knows what is going on around him. He drifts in and out,opens one or sometimes both eyes and the twinkle acknowledges that he knows I am there. His cheeks have become concave and his stomach the same. Just looks and sounds so painful. It is not a fate I would wish upon anyone. I sat and listened to Jim Reeves this week. My father often inflicted him on the household as loud as yer like. Actually starting to sound good ...well alot better than it did when I was younger.... "Adios Amigo" and "Distant Drums" kind of stuck in the throat.

Weightloss...

Purchased some new jeans this week...4 inches less in the waist than my last pair...Wow ,the small buzz I got from that lifted me briefly and I know longterm everything healthwise is going to be a whole lot better in my life...but unfortunately "Karma" seems to balance everything out.
The week in August I had my operation was the week my dad was diagnosed in hospital with terminal cancer of the oesophagus. If that isn't proof to back up the theory of "Karma" then I don't know what is?